I do miss Regina, we all do. It is very hard FOR ME , to enjoy things without her. I constantly think about her, and feel guilty about some things.. I just realised HOW much I did for her. Even around our house. Colors to stimulate her, Of course I asked her before I did paint rooms in our house, toys everywhere, her favorite music, , her favorite books, mugs , plates bowls... cupcake pans and inserts. Her favorite chips are still in my pantry, and her spicy noodles are waiting for something...

,.. We have LOT OF REGINA IN OUR HOUSE ... I feel happy and sad same time. happy , that I have learned so much from her, and sad, that She can't teach me and be here for me anymore. I still remember those times when she bought me glass of water when I coughed couple of times...

I still can't go to Sephora store because it was one of her fave stores..
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Past few days I have been trying to go into stores. I get in and then get out as fast as possible. I just drive around from parking lot to parking lot and take deep breaths in.....
It is very hard to pass girls department in Target, or wall mart, or Childrens place and justice. Stores are full of cute and adorable girl clothes, and RIGHT NOW, Reginas favorite styles are in...

Anyway.. I do laugh, and smile and go to places and bars. But it is different. My worry is replaced with Missing her. Before I worried constantly when I left her with sitters, NOW I miss this worry. We humans are hard to please..

Anyway...
I want to thank few people about Making Reginas Life Celebration special.
FIRST--- O'COnnor Mortuary..- Reginas Make up was amazing. SHE looked so "alive", so peaceful, so calm. SHe looked almost.. .. Alive... And to see REgina like that I knew she was well cared for.

I also want to thank Risa . SHE IS AMAZING. Thanks to her Tent number 2 looked "Very Regina". Pink, balloons, funeral program, Reginas Buttons. SHE is the one who helped with My vision, and SHE DELIVERED IT!!!! Thank you Risa. ALso, she is one of the most talented woman's I know. Whatever she does is PERFECT- Her face paintings, Her glitter tattoos, her weddings, and now Funerals.... I don't know how she does it, but she does it well... :) Thank you Risa:)
http://www.colorfulfaceart.com/aboutorangecountyfacepainter.html


Also, Talbert Family Foundation has been very, very helpful over past few years. :) Julie Talbert has been collecting all your helpful donations and sending them to us. Funerals these days are not cheap, and medical bills are still coming in... Blah....
http://www.talbertfamilyfoundation.org/

Thanks to Friends Jennifer and Andrea we found photographer Chad, who we hired to take photos of Reginas celebration of life. We don't have his photos yet, but soon...
http://www.narkchareonphotography.com/

Since our families from China and Estonia could not attend Reginas life celebration, I felt it is very important to get this important event videotaped ( dvd), so we could send copies to Estonia and CHina. . Thanks to chaplain Brad Stetson , Ph.d ( www.bradstetson.net), we found Earl Chesser , and he was the one who videotaped everything. We will get the full video in a week or so. http://corelann.com

AND friends who made Rice crispies, sugar cookies, chocolate chip cookies, brownies, cupcakes.

Saddleback Church, who opened their arms and let us use their facilities...


And all of you who have brought dinners over, donated money, flowers, cards, calls, texts, hugs, kisses... Gabriel sitting offers. and more..

THANK YOU :)