Friday, October 2


I do miss Regina, we all do. It is very hard FOR ME , to enjoy things without her. I constantly think about her, and feel guilty about some things.. I just realised HOW much I did for her. Even around our house. Colors to stimulate her, Of course I asked her before I did paint rooms in our house, toys everywhere, her favorite music, , her favorite books, mugs , plates bowls... cupcake pans and inserts. Her favorite chips are still in my pantry, and her spicy noodles are waiting for something...

,.. We have LOT OF REGINA IN OUR HOUSE ... I feel happy and sad same time. happy , that I have learned so much from her, and sad, that She can't teach me and be here for me anymore. I still remember those times when she bought me glass of water when I coughed couple of times...

I still can't go to Sephora store because it was one of her fave stores..
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Past few days I have been trying to go into stores. I get in and then get out as fast as possible. I just drive around from parking lot to parking lot and take deep breaths in.....
It is very hard to pass girls department in Target, or wall mart, or Childrens place and justice. Stores are full of cute and adorable girl clothes, and RIGHT NOW, Reginas favorite styles are in...

Anyway.. I do laugh, and smile and go to places and bars. But it is different. My worry is replaced with Missing her. Before I worried constantly when I left her with sitters, NOW I miss this worry. We humans are hard to please..

Anyway...
I want to thank few people about Making Reginas Life Celebration special.
FIRST--- O'COnnor Mortuary..- Reginas Make up was amazing. SHE looked so "alive", so peaceful, so calm. SHe looked almost.. .. Alive... And to see REgina like that I knew she was well cared for.

I also want to thank Risa . SHE IS AMAZING. Thanks to her Tent number 2 looked "Very Regina". Pink, balloons, funeral program, Reginas Buttons. SHE is the one who helped with My vision, and SHE DELIVERED IT!!!! Thank you Risa. ALso, she is one of the most talented woman's I know. Whatever she does is PERFECT- Her face paintings, Her glitter tattoos, her weddings, and now Funerals.... I don't know how she does it, but she does it well... :) Thank you Risa:)
http://www.colorfulfaceart.com/aboutorangecountyfacepainter.html


Also, Talbert Family Foundation has been very, very helpful over past few years. :) Julie Talbert has been collecting all your helpful donations and sending them to us. Funerals these days are not cheap, and medical bills are still coming in... Blah....
http://www.talbertfamilyfoundation.org/

Thanks to Friends Jennifer and Andrea we found photographer Chad, who we hired to take photos of Reginas celebration of life. We don't have his photos yet, but soon...
http://www.narkchareonphotography.com/

Since our families from China and Estonia could not attend Reginas life celebration, I felt it is very important to get this important event videotaped ( dvd), so we could send copies to Estonia and CHina. . Thanks to chaplain Brad Stetson , Ph.d ( www.bradstetson.net), we found Earl Chesser , and he was the one who videotaped everything. We will get the full video in a week or so. http://corelann.com

AND friends who made Rice crispies, sugar cookies, chocolate chip cookies, brownies, cupcakes.

Saddleback Church, who opened their arms and let us use their facilities...


And all of you who have brought dinners over, donated money, flowers, cards, calls, texts, hugs, kisses... Gabriel sitting offers. and more..

THANK YOU :)

7 comments:

Joanna said...

If I never even had the chance to meet Regina in person, and I miss her and think about her every day, I can't imagine the ache for you. I think - I hope - our missing her means a part of her will go on. She touched my family's life and we will carry that with us forever. A part of your daughter will go out into the world with my children.

Amanda said...

Well said Joanna. I think about you and read your updates daily and I shed tears. My heart aches and I cannot even imagine how you must be feeling. I do feel very lucky to have known Regina, though not in person, because knowing her has changed me in a way that I will forever be thankful for. ((hugs))

Anonymous said...

Hi Diana - thanks for sharing once again. This must be so hard on everyone. Keeping you in my thoughts for strenght and happiness. Think about you guys alot.
Debbbie

Anonymous said...

Diana,
i dont even want to try to understand how you feel. It must be sooo hard for a mother to lose one of her children.
I am glad ther her life clebration turned out like it did
I am sure lots of things will remind you of her now. Simple things like smells ...
I wish i could have met her.....Santana wanted it so bad.
She will be in our hearts forever !!!!

Hugs Sandra

Harry McLaughlin said...

Hi Diana,
Hope you and your family are doing as well as possible. I know it must be difficult, please hang in there.

Take care,
Harry

Anonymous said...

Hi Diana, Thank you for these last few updates. I am glad you are still updating people and letting us know how you and your family are getting along. I couldn't come to Regina's celebration of life, but from what you described and what I have heard, it sounds as if it were perfect. Always know that our family continues to keep you in our prayers, and that thinking of Regina puts a smile on my face.

Tracy Skupien

The ParTea Planner said...

Diana,
Thank you for your note, it was very sweet of you. And I'm glad you think that "whatever I do is perfect" which is kind to say, I could only wish.....Although my hubby wishes I was talented at keeping the house clean.

But thank you for allowing and trusting me to assist with a very important occasion. I feel so honored to call the Tan family my friends. Your vision is what made it "Very Regina" and so perfect.

xoxox,
Risa