Saturday, January 10
For Life As it is.
Regina had a tough day yesterday. Pain, allergic reactions to tape, not sure if pain was pain or itching. Headaches, vomiting. She did smile and watch tv and eat some food. But in general she acts little upset and is not sure what is going on with her. Her personality has changed a bit. She still has her sense of humor, but she has more anger in her now, and when she gets upset, it is almost impossible to calm her down.
She is off all Iv meds and fluids. In that sense she is doing good.
And now worst stuff. Regina has one more REAL surgery coming up on Tuesday. Sadly her surgeons missed one big chunk of tumor that is in safe area, and they do not want to waste gamma knife radiation on that spot. Dr Loudon believes that best thing is to cut it out. Of course, risks like stroke and seizures and bleeding in brain are there, and who knows what else could go wrong. But I still feel like this is right way to go.
I know some of you are starting to doubt my sanity- why I am doing this. I am sure Nick thinks same thing, but sit and wait?? No. IF something goes wrong during surgery- we have great memories of Regina . but if things go as planned, we can spend more time with her and create even better memories. You know what,I actually enjoy this one on one time with her in Hospital. I feed her, I play with her, I change her diaper, I give her meds. Yes, I am lucky that I do not have to work.
Anyway, keep your get well thoughts coming. She needs them constantly