Wednesday, August 5


(Barbara Britt, Dr. Dhall and REgina)

YOu know how much I want to post whole page of happyfaces and tell you that everything will be ok again. But sadly, third times since 2004 I have to tell you - News that we got today were worst possible news again . Dr Dhall tryed to be positive and tell us that maybe..... But we saw THE SCAN. UGLY. UGLY . UGLY. UGLY.
You have no idea how much I hate cancer , how much I have hated it all thse years. How much I hate that SINGLE CELL that started multiplying ... and turned into... SPNET.

If you ask about HOW much time we have with her- then you know the answer- WE HAVE NO IDEA. We take one day at a time and try to make the best of it.
AHHH. I don't feel like writing anymore. We apreciate your good thoughts , Prayers, EVERYTHING YOU GUYS DO :) We love you for being here for us. :)

I got few WHAT CAN WE DO FOR YOU questions. -- Please don't be afraid to contact us, or ask questions, or step by once in a while :) We love guests, AND PLEASE TAKE BOTTLE OF WINE OR VODKA WITH YOU ;) hint, hint hehehe....
But really, please don't send soft toys or blankets- we have one way to many :( If you really want to help , then instead of buying a toy, send us a check that can cover medical bills( to Diana or Nick Tan) ( YES< OUT of network bills still need to be paid ).

Barbara Britt will make some phonecalls and help us set up hospice/pallative care meeting.


Anonymous said...

I am so so sorry. I don;t have any money to send you. I can not believe all your family has had to go through. My heart goes out to you.


Kathy said...

I'm so terribly sorry.

Here's to hoping none of the paperwork is in Japanese this time.

liina said...

That really sucks. I'm so sorry... Do you have a paypal account?

Patty said...

I am so sorry. I to can not afford to send any money, we live on a fixed income. I also know all the dirty things cancer can do to a family. I have lost about five members of my family to that dirty word, cancer. I myself have had two bouts with it.

Again, I am so sorry and if wishing healed someone, she would have been healed a long time ago.

Tiffani said...

i dont know what to say. chills are running through my body. i want to cry... i want to hug you both.
i am so sorry. so sorry.
you are both so inspirational to me. and 2 of the biggest fighters i have ever met (well, virtually met). i am going through a lot in life right now, but nothing compared to you. you put things in perspective. my children are healthy and for that i am so thankful.
i have no money but if i did you could have it all.
i am so sorry.
enjoy what you can.
xoxo - tiffani

Sleeping Beauty said...

:):):):):) Oh guys:) You are sweet :) YOu don't have to apologize for not sending money or anything else:) We love your support and get well thoughts and that you do check on us once in a while :)
I don't have paypal srry :(

clarahallow121 said...

You have such a strong, beautiful child. I am so keeping you in my prayers. :)

Colleen said...

Diana- There are no words to say. You, Regina, Nick and Gabriel have been so strong and you have been living your life. Living with cancer, not giving up but cherishing each day. Just think of how much more time you had with Regina because you went ahead with new treatment after you were told about the first relapse. You created beautiful memories and had so many precious moments.

None of us have a guarantee when our time on earth is finished. You just have to appreciate what you have. You have done that. Regina is a miracle. Look how far she has come when they didn't think she would be here.

I know you may not share the same faith as me but I know Regina is going to be healed of cancer one day in heaven. I have seen and felt too much on our journey with Ellie and I know with every fiber of my being that there is another life that we go to and it is all good.

Please know how much we care, how sad we are over the recent news and how honored we are to know Regina.

Love- Colleen & Ellie

Steph said...

I am so sorry. I continue to think about you daily!!

GraceBeading said...

So very sorry to hear your news. I'm sending positive thoughts and prayers to you and your family, double for that sweet little girl who has already been through so much - too much.

Anonymous said...

Diana, I am so sorry that this is where you now are on Regina's journey. Please know you are all in my thoughts. Please keep all of us updated as much as you are able or, if possible, have someone post on your blog for you. We do sincerely care.
Dd dx hepatoblastoma 1993
angiomatoid fibrioushistiocytoma 2006

Joanna said...

Love, love, love, love to you all.

Ilaria said...

Thinking about you guys.

Anonymous said...

Dear Tan family, The Skupien's are always checking to see how you are doing. This latest news is very upsetting. We are always thinking of you, and will continue to keep you in our prayers.

With love, Tracy, Brenna and Luke

Kristyn said...

You are all in my thoughts.

Katrina said...
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Katrina said...

Diana, it breaks my heart to read your latest posting. I do hope that your heart may be lightened by the joy Regina has brought you and continues to bring you every day. I know that she always brought joy to me, as one of her teachers, with her bright smile and the grace and dignity that she always displayed. All of us can learn a lesson from this inspiring, lovely young lady, as well as her amazing mother!

Blessings to you. You are always in my heart.

Love, Katrina (Mrs. Soto)

Sandra said...

Diana and Regina. I have known you only via the internet......but you and me have been in contact since both the kids were still in our belly. I still remember the e-mail when you told me that Regina had cancer. I heart is breaking for you ever minute of he day. I can not imagine how it must feel for you ...being sad/angry most of her life.
I wish i had money to send but like so many other ppl right now times are hard. I am thinking about you and your family all the time and wish there was something i can do. I will send lots of love and prayers. I wish the best for your little princess.

Harry McLaughlin said...

You're in our thoughts and in our hearts. We're wishing always for the best.

Harry and Leila

Anonymous said...

Diana, an infinite amount of love and prayers coming your way...


Melissa Fromme and family

pru said...

very sorry, I can ask my friend to bring Kody by. He's a therapy dog, lighter than Mo. 43lbs, so sweet. Loves children. If so, email me at blessings to you and the family.

Anonymous said...

Oh, dear friends, that was the saddest thing I've heard in a long time, will not say very long time, because I still remember when Nick called about the relapse. We love you all so much and think about you. Let us now if we can do anything!!!
Elisabet & Gunnar

The McHenry's said...

It was so great running in to you and Regina this summer but it was so sad to read your latest blog. You are the strongest woman I know, and I think your strength is admired by many. Regina herself has more strength than anyone be so young and having gone through all that she has....our love and prayers to all of you Diana.

Doris, Kevin, Kate & Olivia

Kristin said...

I am a lurker here (and a bt mom)...just wanted to say your beautiful Regina is often in my thoughts and prayers.

Brain tumors suck beyond all, and I am just so sorry...

wishing you peace and smiles in each day,
Kristin, mom to Genna & Rosie & Andrew

Anonymous said...

The Tan Family --

What an amazing story you have shared with so many over the past years. I have posted comments a couple of times before and I sit here in tears now after reading your last post. You have made so many tough decisions for Regina, and with those you have received time and memories that you would not have had together. This is priceless!!!

As you take this next step in your journey rememember all the good times and continue to stand by your daughter as everyone know you will. From this you have NEVER waivered.

May God be with you all and mostly, whatever is in store, may your beautiful daughter not suffer. She has been through so very much and is such a fighter ... an amazing, strong, gorgeous little girl. So much like her mother. You raised her well, Diana. Remember that always. A bit presumptious since I have never met you, but I think those that do know you personally may agree.

God bless you all!

Northville, MI

Anonymous said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I recently found out that a friend has only a few months left to live. She is 35years old. When I saw your blog I thought of her.
God Bless you