Every day is emotionally different for me. For Her, for us. Today was especially hard for me and I don't know why.
Day started out fine. Regina woke up six and did some playing. But she gets tired very easily now. Even eating makes her tired. :( Then I went to do some running, but I am physically so exhausted I only could run a mile.... When I got home and did my stretching doorbell rang... FOR my surprise, we got a great fruitbasket from Edible arrangements . We really are thankful for sender :) FRUIT IS GOOD:)
Around 2 o'clock doorbell rang again... This time it was scheduled surprise. I did not even tell Regina:) BECAUSE I KNEW she would say no, but she loves dogs so I kept it a secret... I want to thank Pru for making this happen :)-+
Besides that I received and made more phone calls... Fairhaven Mortuary gave us phone number to contact The Unforgettables foundation-http://www.theunforgettables.com/
That help out with funeral expenses IF we qualify... They also gave me referral to O'Connor mortuary that is very close to us. THey said that Fairhaven is great mortuary, but O'connor is equally as good.. Now only thing I have to check is prices. Even though O'Connor might be closer, but if it is more expensive then most likely we will not choose it. I am going to visit them on Monday morning around 11 AM ..
Yesterday I also called Chaplain Brad Stetson ( fairhaven recommended him). He is coming to visit us on Tuesday morning. Before I was sure we are going to use Fairhaven, now I am in between.. If I like O Connor better, and their prices are about the same, then I try to get things moving with them...
I also had emotional breakdown today.. Well, small things like MEDICAL bills are still driving me insane. let just say.. to receive almost 2000 dollar medical bill from Choc ( january/february intensive care co pays or whatever).. I just started crying on phone. Told the person on other line that I AM NOT ready to discuss it right now and hang up. I told her that Do I really have to deal with it right now, and she told me..-- I don't want this bill to go to collection agency... FUCK... I try to call insurance tomorrow and check what is going on ( I hate it thought), because we have met our deductibles.. .
SO TIRED. SO SO SO TIRED... OH... and My baby BOY Gabriel got his chicken box vaccine today... He acted like it was end of the world....