Thursday, August 27

Every day is different

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Every day is emotionally different for me. For Her, for us. Today was especially hard for me and I don't know why.
Day started out fine. Regina woke up six and did some playing. But she gets tired very easily now. Even eating makes her tired. :( Then I went to do some running, but I am physically so exhausted I only could run a mile.... When I got home and did my stretching doorbell rang... FOR my surprise, we got a great fruitbasket from Edible arrangements . We really are thankful for sender :) FRUIT IS GOOD:)

Around 2 o'clock doorbell rang again... This time it was scheduled surprise. I did not even tell Regina:) BECAUSE I KNEW she would say no, but she loves dogs so I kept it a secret... I want to thank Pru for making this happen :)-+
Besides that I received and made more phone calls... Fairhaven Mortuary gave us phone number to contact The Unforgettables foundation-http://www.theunforgettables.com/
That help out with funeral expenses IF we qualify... They also gave me referral to O'Connor mortuary that is very close to us. THey said that Fairhaven is great mortuary, but O'connor is equally as good.. Now only thing I have to check is prices. Even though O'Connor might be closer, but if it is more expensive then most likely we will not choose it. I am going to visit them on Monday morning around 11 AM ..
Yesterday I also called Chaplain Brad Stetson ( fairhaven recommended him). He is coming to visit us on Tuesday morning. Before I was sure we are going to use Fairhaven, now I am in between.. If I like O Connor better, and their prices are about the same, then I try to get things moving with them...

I also had emotional breakdown today.. Well, small things like MEDICAL bills are still driving me insane. let just say.. to receive almost 2000 dollar medical bill from Choc ( january/february intensive care co pays or whatever).. I just started crying on phone. Told the person on other line that I AM NOT ready to discuss it right now and hang up. I told her that Do I really have to deal with it right now, and she told me..-- I don't want this bill to go to collection agency... FUCK... I try to call insurance tomorrow and check what is going on ( I hate it thought), because we have met our deductibles.. .

SO TIRED. SO SO SO TIRED... OH... and My baby BOY Gabriel got his chicken box vaccine today... He acted like it was end of the world....

8 comments:

the undomesticated wife said...

I'm sorry you had a rough day Diana. :( I hope tomorrow is better for you.

I love that you had a pet therapy dog there for Regina! I remember you posted pictures of her and your friend's lab and she seemed so happy. Animals can be so great for your spirit. That's such a cute picture of them!

the undomesticated wife said...

(that's me...Gari-Ann...I forgot you may not realize what my blog name is)

Kathy said...

There are some people I love very much who were laid to rest at Fairhaven, but I know it's not so close for you.

Maybe I should come over and yell at your insurance company for you. I'm preparing to yell at ours as soon as they open tomorrow and I think I'll be in fine form when I'm done, that is, if they aren't successful in getting me to cry.

And lately I've been imagining that you write things in your blog just for me.

Things like "chicken box".

Sleeping Beauty said...

;) I know kathy:) IF my spell checker had fixed it , I would have noticed it .....:) lol

Dymesha Wheeler said...

Better days are ahead. Stay strong. Sending lots of love to Regina.

Patty said...

If all of your friends all think at the same time, perhaps we could send some energy your way. I feel so bad for all you and your family are going through right now. Also so helpless. But just know we are all thinking of you, Regina, Nick and Gabriel.

Hope Regina likes fresh fruit, that basket looks yummy.

Patty said...

Also hope she enjoyed her visit with the dog.

shelley said...

so happy that regina got the visit from the dog! i just don't know how you are doing all this crap!!! i can only imagine....i do like that word though...sometimes.. UCK is the only word that describes the situation!! please let us know what kind of visits regina can tolerate or what she would look forward to...if one could make it up from san diego?? :)