Wednesday, August 18

Tomorrow  is August 19th... On September of 19th Regina would have turned 11.....   So many of you don't get it..  you think it is all in my head. I am paranoid, I am just making things up.....  I am "emotional"without any relevant reason....
It was just   11 months ago , when Regina passed away.. I can't believe how fast people forget ..

I Was there in AUGUST for here, we all were... I remember   her glassy eyes, and her irregular breathing and heart rate... I remember her not  responding to me when I told her I love her and how much I miss her.. I remember singing her and holding her hand and not getting any response from her.  I remember her smell and warmth ....  I remember how devastated I was not being able to help her... I remember it all...

and now it is all coming back to me... memory by memory.... and it hurts .

I miss My Baby Regina so much  .. I want to talk about  all the time.... And I do..I talk  to myself...when nobody is around..

RIP Regina Melody.....

3 comments:

Kathy said...

Big hugs, Diana. I think about her all the time this summer too, starting with that bad MRI in July, seeing My Sister's Keeper, her birthday party, all of it.

Too much dark stuff, that and other stuff, to write about these days.

Praying that your 2 years in China turn out to be a positive move for all of you.

Rachel in AZ said...

I don't think your crazy... I think your as normal as a mommy could be.

katarina said...

Can't believe that anybody would diminish your feelings.
It is only so very natural that it is all coming back to you (or really never leaves you).