She wanted Christmas miracle so badly , she believed in santa and all, and in the end she got it. :D GOod for her. Her boyfriend got to walk .. Even for a minute:D
But. If I believed in santa, and had one wish, I am sure, you all know what I would wish for. ... EVEN writing this makes me tear up. I was very angry with the show writers. How could they write such a story, how could they make some 17 year old still believe in santa, and in the end she gets her wish???
Oh , you have no idea how much work I still have to do before I find my "safe place". I am still lost in so many levels". At times I am still numb, I still hear other people blabbering about some weird pimple on their 2 year old, and I just smile and go. .OK, It will get better...
I have one wish for myself.- I want to get better. I want to find safe place for myself. I wan't to be me and not worry about people feeling pity for me when I cry out of blue.
I wan't to get better.
2 comments:
Diana, it has been 4 years since my dds last tumor (bone) and 12 years since the first one (liver cancer). I still cry at odd, unexpected times and she survived. If you cry out of the blue, please don't worry about other people's reactions. The way they react is their problem, sweetie, not yours. No one knows what the parent of a child with cancer goes through except another parent and even then each person's experience is unique. I think you have come so far in this last year. Healing is a journey and you're doing it--maybe not as fast, or the way you want to, but you're there for Nick and Gabriel and that's so much to be proud of.
Love you SB and am enjoying following your adventures (thank you for sharing - even you you don't feel like it : ) ). I think of your girl all the time.
KMGheno
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